Don't be in such a rush to figure everything out. Embrace the unknown and let your life surprise you.
"If there is something that humanity cannot complain about, it is a lack of opportunities for Self-realization. In every moment the keys to the mysteries have existed over the face of the Earth. There have always been Masters of Wisdom in charge of guiding the neophytes in the search for the Truth that can can only be experienced in an individual manner with the help of precise techniques revealed by an authentic Initiate." ~ Samael Aun Weor